Confessions

Some of you may have noticed that I have not posted on my Insta about working out... well that's because I haven't been. Plain and simple. I feel poopy about it, but this past week some life events have happened. I have been over committing to people and events, not being able to say no as well as not being able to follow my own schedule. But I think the biggest event is the death of my Uncle after a year long battle with pancreatic cancer, the thought of him no longer being around has me tear up and miss his funny Argentinian accent. I know he's in a better place no longer in pain and I cherish those moments I got to spend with him while he was with us. :'( Well what it comes down to is that I had to think things over and reset my priorities and most importantly putting dates to my goals. WHOLLY MOLEE! Talk about clarity!

A few years ago I went to see a therapist because I felt anxious and I didn't know what I could do to help it. She provided me with some great self help books and that's where I was able to become more of an honest person not only to myself but others. I admit I lost a few "friends" along the way, but being honest has taken away the rose colored glassed and helped me get on a steady road.

I realized I had some Codependency issues and although reading is not my thing. I wanted myself to feel better so I joined audible.com and listened to the book on my workouts, cleaning, or while stuck in traffic. Well after listening to this book a lot of things in my life made sense. From my past relationships to present ones. I was able to see where I could make changes in my life to be the best version of myself possible.

The next book on the list was the biggest life changer for me. Boundaries... I realized I had poor boundaries by being too nice, but the reality was that I was just a mat for people to walk on. After I listened to this book, things really began to change! I was promoted at my job, I became a better mother to my son and most importantly I was happy!

So what does this have to do with my confession? Sometimes you feel that you loose track of how far you've come when you think you've fallen down. But there is nothing wrong with picking yourself up and moving forward. It's ok to pause, just don't forget to press play. Loosing weight the healthy way is new for me and I am reminded of how much I want this and why it is important to stay committed. Tomorrow is a new day and I am excited for what the upcoming weeks have in store. Thanks for listening. xoxo