I am one of youngest in my family. Even since I could remember I was overweight. Moving to a new city and not being able to make friends didn't help my self esteem because I was labeled different. My parents did so much to boost my self esteem always making me feel special to them they even got me involved with sports (I wasn't that good). By then I was developing to be my own person and I was sneaky. At 16 years old I was introduced to motherhood. I thought I was invisible to teen pregnancy. As if my self esteem wasn't already poor, my body changed. My hips were wider, I had stretch marks and my breasts would never be what there were. I believed that nobody would want me, I was ruined. So I did what I could for my son. I took parenting classes, graduated from my high school and started college. Around 18 years old I started looking at my body differently. I went to GNC one day and looked for something that could boost my energy, I started to take nutrition and fitness classes at my college. My boyfriend at the time told me about appetite suppressants. That evolved into a vicious cycle of trying the next new thing for over 15 years and within that time I gained 60 pounds.
In the past I allowed others to dictate what my future should be. My family, my ex-boyfriends, people that gave me negative feedback. I listened to what their expectations of me was and tried to live up to that just to become disappointed that I didn't get their approval. Or if I did get it, I got to say "I told you so!". So childish, but in reality I had to set my goals and expectations. I had to dictate my future and say what I needed.
My goals are to be committed to staying healthy and fit, become financially independent, help anyone that wants to help themselves, teach & educate those who want to do something different for themselves and continue growing into the person I am meant to be.
The reason for these goals is because I've gotten off track so many times in the past. I didn't understand commitment... well specifically commitment to myself. I could commit to my work, my friends and especially my boyfriend. I would do what I could to provide everyone else happiness which eventually evolved in my own bitterness. I would have this huge weight on my shoulders to commit to creating other peoples happiness but completely forgetting myself. People have a tendency to forget that genuine politeness comes from being true to yourself. I wasn't genuine not to myself or my family. In the past 7 years I have searched and prayed for that genuine quality and I feel that I have been able to find it when I let negative people out of my life. I started to believe in myself again. I started to do things for myself which provided me with empowerment.
July 2013 is when I started my weight loss and fitness journey. A relationship just ended and I wanted to get myself back into shape. August 2013 is when I committed to being a beachbody coach with Focus T25. In the past I had tried P90X but did not have the guidance or commitment to finish program, I just bought it and figured it would work through osmosis. It took work and I made every excuse possible to not make it happen. Then later getting a bootleg copy of Insanity again total fail. I was looking for the shortcut, the easy way out.
I admit I had no clue what to expect on becoming a beachbody coach. I knew I got a discount and I tried Shakeology before and I LOVED the taste. So why not? Then one day I got a check for $79.99 from selling a challenge pack to a friend. I was in shock because it wasn't a gimmick, I could actually make money from selling a product I believed in and the best thing of all was that I was helping people help themselves! I started getting in my old habits of making excuses when it came to working out at home, but I continued drinking my shakeology and maintained a 20 lbs weight loss since starting in July, but something else has also changed. My eating habits, I may not always food prep each week but I am consciously making healthier choices. I no longer desire bread and butter. I can look past a candy bar a slice of pizza or some fried food because I know how it's going to make me feel later. Shakeology had really helped my body know what it feels like to feel good when you feed it good food.
Currently I'm working out to P90X3 and I love it because it incorporates weights. I like the length of the program (30 minutes) and I feel good I got a workout in. I don't make as many excuses because I want to be a product of the product. I hope by this summer I can feel comfortable in a bathing suit maybe even one day a bikini.
What I hope to help your weight loss journey by working on setting goals and reaching them. To help you stay on track keep focused but most of all help keep you on track to know that you can do this. Now that you have a glimpse of what I've been through I hope maybe that you see small steps are still steps. Even if you get a little side tracked remember how great it feels to get where you always wanted. This has been a lifestyle change for me and I attribute that to becoming a beachbody coach.
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